What's it all for?

I have been trying to decide if this is worth the cost of continuing. I have to admit that since I have started this journey, the struggle has been real. And while I have been able to heal parts of my life, other parts are falling apart. It seems as if this nightmare doesn't want to end until it puts an end to the dream of just wanting something more than existing.

I have spent my life trying to do the right things and honestly, in this world today, it's not worth the price I have paid. This world is full of shitty people, who do shitty things and get away with it. They steal, they cheat, they lie, manipulate and bully others until they get their own way. They work the system that doesn't give a shit about anybody except the highest bidder.

This world is full of assholes who only want what they don't have to work for or if it belongs to somebody else, they expect a piece of the pie, and will take it, even if it means stealing it. They don't care who they hurt in the process. And apparently kindness is a target for the leaches of the world.

To be transparent, I never thought this is where I would be when I started my writing journey, I never considered it would make me a target to the evils of this world. My world of Life inRhymes has become a never-ending series of trials and tribulations that are killing my light and my kindness, the blinders are off. FTW.

If being taken advantage of, lied to and accused of things I never said or did are the results, then I don't want to be a light in this world. It takes too much to recharge. I can't help anyone if I am unable to help myself and honestly, there are people out there watching and waiting for the demise of anything good in this place.

It's time to explore the other side of love and light. It is where all the good stuff happens anyway, cause out here in the light, it only leaves you to be judged and used for other people's profit.

I used to think I had what it took to make it in this world and frankly, I am ashamed to be a part of it. It's time to put the pen down and sink back into the dark where I can't be found. Humanity sucks when you can't trust your own intuition because there is always someone lurking in the shadows to steal your happiness.

We are alone, and love is untrustworthy. There are no heroes coming to save us. We as a species need to wipe ourselves out and start over. Maybe in the next life, humanity will get its priorities right.

In the meantime, not even a prayer can save us now and it just might be time to join the masses on the other side of the light. At least there, you can be alone and out of sight.

No more next times.