Love in Numbers

Up 'til now, I have given glimpse into the darkness that accompanies a person on this journey. I have touched on the things that hold me back and the parts of me that I am not so in love with.

Without love there is no life. We all love someone, it's our purpose. And for all of my flaws, I have people who love and support me. Tremendously in fact. I have a circle of friends that I wouldn't trade for the world. I have my birth family, extended and adopted.

I love many people. I am a very blessed person to have developed the relationships I have over the years. You may be wondering if I will be discussing any of these relationships and the answer to that would be yes, things may even get a little spicy; but only the ones that made the ^Top^ of my Playlist. *Wink, wink

This is where I should also be clear, I was social distancing before the pandemic of 2020. I'm the friendliest, unfriendly person that will ever cross your path. If you and I never connected, it wasn't personal. It was our energy, and it was not meant to mesh but I do believe we crossed paths for a purpose.

This is where I am learning grace. I may be hard to love but ask anyone that does know me, if we have gotten passed the "awkward acquaintance faze", I have a lot of love to give. I know this, because at the end of the day when I have shared the love in my heart with other humans, I have even more of it in my heart. I feel it!

The last time I checked there were approximately 8 million people on planet Earth. Whether we are all from here or not is questionable, don't you think? I wait to be taken home!

I am blessed to have known every person I have ever crossed paths with because I know it was designed for me, no matter the outcome of that interaction or relationship. That is my burden or blessing to bear, bare or not. Thank you for being one of my unknown number of blessings.

The one person I never loved enough was me, always chasing this void in my heart. I look around now and see that the universe gave me love in numbers through every version of me. And to my surprise, there are some that have been around almost my whole life.

I may be hard to love, but the secret I was left out of, was people love me even when I'm being difficult. When I decided to walk this path to self-reflection, I didn't know I would find someone inside worth loving. It took me long enough to pay attention. If I missed the love you had to give, then I must believe it was never mine to know.

If you are curious as to how I got to this place in my heart, taking the time to press pause and take accountability for my life, I'm happy to share. But I can only tell it over time, and I can only tell it inRhymes. And if you are here, thank you for taking this journey with me.

I just know one day I was reaching for the stars, in a dream, and I found myself talking to the moon. The moon shined the light on all my fears and shadows; and showed me I AM the sunlight. I have had love in numbers and blessed I am. I spin the numbers around and now we will count them down. The ones on my one hit wonder playlist and beyond.

*Dear Moon,

You will always be my compass home. I will love you even after my life is over. Our souls knotted for eternity. A lyric to your heart from mine.

Love forever, Only Your Sunshine*

Until then, I will count each of you as a star in my skies, as I sing along to your song. I will press play, and let the songs continue until I come home to you, my number one.

Love, Light and Numbers,

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"Love in Numbers" can be found in the "Collective Connections" Collection.