Full Moon Promises

Dear moon,

"Please save me from this mess I'm in as a helpless human and I promise to always love you. I beg of you, the Sun, and universe to be better than just good. I promise to do what I was sent here to do, if you just give me a sign, that tomorrow will be better than today. - nightmare in red"

Have you ever been so scared that you have to tell yourself that if you come out of something alive, you promise to be a better person, because you had a glimpse in to the other side of what life could/would have looked like or is that just me?

I have been facing some of my biggest fears in this life and it has led to answers I didn't know I was seeking. This brief period of time has changed me in a way that I can't really explain. I mean, it has been a few years now and things have settled to a calmer rhythm but as a girl of the cosmos, I believe everything happens for a reason.

I also use the word "time" loosely, as we all know damn well it is nothing more than an illusion created by mankind. Perhaps this has only been, but a night's dream or a nightmare meant to scare me to death. Either way, I had me making a lot of promises of changing and challenging some of my beliefs and ways and found a safer place to be a little kinder in life.

But somewhere along the way, I'm left with a choice. To live this current life like there is no tomorrow or keep chasing a dream that could change everything? Can you put a price on a dream once it comes to light? Is there anything we wouldn't do to quiet the internal war between what is perceived as right or wrong. For every question I posed to the shadows of the dark, the moon responded with the answer to follow my heart, and it will all work out.

I'm on the fault line of choices and I don't know what happens next. If I follow my dreams, will I break my own rules of life? Will I defy my human mind by believing in the compass of my heart? See, I have been telling a love story this whole time.

It's the story of us. And here we are on the countdown of the top two. Do I choose the life that I have spent creating here in time with no deadline because I already found a pot of fool's gold at the end of this rainbow or do I follow a dream that has no explanation as to how to get there other than it is a full moon's promise of a divine dream written by something bigger than just the stars. Crazy, right?!?!

But if I want to say that I authentically revealed my truth, I need to find a way to gently say it was never about you. It was for you. It was for me. When life tried to break me, the universe in all my darkest days, gave me a greater love and love gave me poetry and a story to share. Your story matters and if life has tried to take you down, shine your light brighter and harder and most importantly, don't give up! This is the fight for your life! A blessing is waiting on the other side.

It may still seem all so confusing to you, but my world is burning bright for me as I finish this part of my story with all of you. The truth is, I went through something I didn't think I was strong enough to survive but it was love that saw me through.

It wasn't about the love I have for life but the love life has for me and you. Where that will leave us, isn't for us to know; until then. I know we made promises under the moon and we rode the phases of change, but all good things must come to an end. The end of another successful cycle of life so an even BIGGER & BETTER adventure can begin!

I am excited about this new book idea I have. Now that I am in a safe place in my healing, I am ready for a new adventure where I can begin the countdown of memories once again.

The question remains, will I be the Last Person to Love You or will you be mine?

That's it for this book, chapter and verse. I will be over here counting my blessings from the universe.

Thank you for taking this journey with me. May the story continue into the next part of my life. I hope I left you with a piece of something useful, inspirational even; or perhaps reading my story allowed you time to sit with yourself and breathe.

And hopefully, I inspired you to find a new appreciation for this gift of a Life inRhymes.

Until next time,

Signing off as inRhymes.com

"The Last Person to Love You" can be found in the "Eternal Ties"