Words Hurt

Thus, the never ending, Internal War.

Sticks and stones. I'm the rubber, you're the glue. Remember these? Cause I do.

Every time I had to say it or think it, it cut like a knife. Words hurt. I know this.

Words are weapons. They can tie us up inside or they can put a song in your heart. They make us laugh or cry. They can hold us prisoner for a lifetime.

We use them to hurt and slander, to cancel and fight. We use them to start wars that keep us divided. We use them to control others. We let them define us.

Words are complicated. I am finally hearing the message that I have been using them wrong this whole time. Using them to hurt myself by holding onto the negative things people say about me as my own words, defending myself when trying to explain, to express my pain and incidentally hurting others. I have used them to fit in and to stand out. All wrong.

What I'm learning is that the universe answers to what we put out. We call to us what we think. I am learning that someone is listening. Whether it is God, the Universe or Big Brother, I believe someone watches over us and answers those words. I know because I have seen it. I am living it in action. My angels have been showing me the way.

Think about all the chance encounters that influence our words and actions daily. What we hold on to from each of those interactions is what we carry with us in our journey. The very weights and chains that hold us back and keep us caged within our own minds. The scars we won't rip open but protect as if our life depends on it. What about the scars we leave on others?

The people we meet, the time in which we meet them. Coincidence? I think not.

In the words of Fox Mulder -The truth is out there!

I am beginning to believe the power of words is a superpower. Remember those people I talked about before? The gift of gabbers, journalists, authors, song writers, poets, storytellers? Just to name a few. These are the ones that have learned the power is in the balance of words. May the rest of us be their humble students.

As an Aquarius, I believe this is meant to be my superpower, for I have both healed and hurt with my words. If I were an Avenger, I would be 'The Narrator" - Destroyer & Healer of Hearts and Words! Hm. I kind of like that. Depends upon who calls to me.

I am duality for good and evil.

I have never truly been intentional to hurt with my words, my heart is always in the right place, the problem is I've never learned how to use my superpower. I thought I was powerless and had no control, but I recently discovered I let my own pain get in the way.

I'm learning to tame this chaotic passion within me, learning to regulate. I am learning the kinder I am to myself, the kinder I am to those around me. When I am hard on myself, I am harder on others. I found this in the dark. I had to sit in silence.

Lessons maybe learned a few decades too late or is it never too late to right a wrong?

I love words and how expressive they can be. Words are expressive, like me. But like a natural disaster, I am intense in the moment and get swept away; and you are then faced with the choice to either ride the ride or you get swept away. If it is something we are to learn together we will land hand in hand within our collective space. This would be active choice to stay or go within any interaction.

If I could take back every hurtful word I have ever said, I'm not sure I can say I could do it. There are lessons to be learned and perhaps our interaction that day was meant for you and me. This was already meant to happen in time.

Poetry has shown me a better way to use my words. I am learning that I can still express myself without reflecting my own pain and I can use that to turn my words for good. I can use them to heal myself; or I can put my hand out to someone who is sitting in this lonely place and help them heal too. If I can do it, so can you. We all have the potential to be superheroes!

Words hurt but let us remember that actions do too. And so does the lack of asked actions. Actions can really be louder than words as actions speak over any chaos around you, while words get lost in the noise.

You can't have balance without words and actions. Neither the world nor time stops for us, always in motion. Silence is the sound we don't sit in enough.

Those quiet moments inside ourselves that we don't hear, because the noise around us is drowning it out.

Today and every day, may we only speak kindly to others.

May we not slander or wound. May our words and thoughts bring blessings and abundance.

If someone asks for help, I will always be here. Please don't let the noise stop you from asking for help. I'm listening.

But like a storm warning, now that I am learning to control my inner darkness, I am understanding that my words and energy have only ever been reflective of you and me of you. It is in my commitment to the actions of always being authentic around you, no matter the words, may they come out of love and compassion; and may they be made of only truth and positive interaction. May they be the promise, I don't break.

Whether that love is to heal me or you, well that is predestined, and I thank the universe for this interaction with you. Let us choose to love in our words and thoughts and move on. But should the words get loud and harsh, may we forgive when it gets to be too much.

There is an internal war raging inside all of us. What war are you battling? I will lead you into the fields of fire if it means bringing you peace of mind and light back into your life.

Love, Light and Internal Wars,

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"Internal Wars" can be found in the "In the Shadows" Collection