Imperfectly Me

Maybe now would be a good time to recap. I feel like I'm slowly unzipping my skin and stepping into who I am meant to be. I am exposing myself for the world to see and I am here in the silence waiting for my voice to make a sound.

This is a scary place to be because I'm here with this new part of me. I'm her, I'm the She in this story and she is far from perfect. I have flaws that dimmed my beauty and insecurities that have dulled my shine. And to be honest, I'm afraid of what's next.

I have exposed myself as imperfectly human. I am a pop of color in a world of black and white. Instead of embracing the beauty of it, I have faded to pastel and become numb to this world. In the years, I have allowed myself to become complacent and invisible.

Or have I? I have yet to tell of the stories of love and fun and full of compassion. I have yet to tell of the good things I have done and stood up for. I have yet to tell how far I have come as a human on this planet. I have yet to reveal the secrets to how I got here.

I have yet to reveal the pieces of the story that have brought about these changes in me. These changes didn't happen overnight. Oh no, no it didn't. This has been years in the making. I would like to say that it was a brief number of years but to be honest, I've been living my whole life to get to this moment.

It's time for me to shine! This is what I have been working so hard for. This is what each encounter in time has brought me to. This place of awareness that life is what we make it. Life is thoughts, actions, moments. Life is love, mistakes, forgiveness. Life is a series of untold events that help shape us but are not meant to define us.

Only we can tell the world who we are. We should stop letting the world tell us who we are supposed to be to fit in. Who makes these false rules of humanity. We look for the negative in others to feel better about ourselves.

Well, this girl walked the path. I looked in the mirror and asked, who does this world see? Am I only who they want me to be? Is it the who I want them to see?

I have been looking for myself in the mirror for a while now and I have discovered I am a square peg trying to fit into the circles of acceptance. I have been so busy trying to be the person other people want me to be that I have forgotten who I want to be when I grow up.

I have been busy trying to be the everything: daughter, sister, wife, mother, friend, aunt, co-worker, leader, boss, etc., and then there is my inner child, the adolescent, the young woman, this person before you here and now. I had to stop and ask myself, who is it that I want the world to remember?

The journey isn't over and there is so much to be grateful for. In all the pain, there have been many good times. The story is just starting to unfold. I thought we should meet at the door. I am showing you where I stand. I stand here just as I am.

I can't say I'm sorry for being,

Imperfectly me.

Love, Light and Imperfections

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"Imperfectly Me" can be found in the "Solitary Truths" Collection