Dedication Hotline 555-000X

The DJ:

"This next soundtrack goes out to all the boys She loved before"

"That she loved and that didn't love her back.

That loved her back and got nothing in return.

That loved her mind and spirit but was too much to handle.

That only loved her body, with nothing more to give.

That never wanted to let her go and lost a lover they didn't know how to hold

And to the ones that got lost and never found their way home, she dedicates this one to you."

SHE:

To all the boys that weren't ready to be a man, "I just want to say, I understand. To say I am sorry for any misunderstanding on my part, I was just looking for a lover who could understand the depths of the love that has fallen into his hands."

DJ:

"This one is an anthology of songs in a compiled soundtrack of broken loves. To all the boys She freely gave her love to, spoken or unspoken. Let's press play.

The songs play on while I reflect upon those that have gotten lost.

It wasn't you; it was me. You see, I have been conditioned to be a giver. The condition is not in the receiving but of how much I can give with nothing of exchange from you. That if I just loved you the way you wanted me to, you would love me in return, and I could begin to receive.

Receive what you may wonder, as perhaps you too, ponder upon a lost lover.

What I have learned is that in loving you with my siren song, I lost myself. I forgot who I am and who I am meant to be. I got lost in believing the fairytale and that you were sent to save me. Nowhere in the fairytale was I told I could save myself.

I've looked in the mirror and see what I didn't know then, is that you were looking for the woman in me. Star-crossed lovers, never meant to be. You were sent as a lesson I'm not meant to forget. You were placed on my path as distraction or destruction, clearing the path with a moment in time. A moment in time, worth pressing rewind.

I left a piece of me the day I lost you; in missing peace, I finally found me.

As I sit here alone and wonder where he roams:

I pray to the universe,

Please let the right one follow love's compass and find his way home

And until that time comes,

Let it be known that I am enough, even alone.

Love, Light and Lost Love

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"Lost Lover" can be found in the "Love's Mixtape Side B" Collection