Until Next Time

...... not good-bye. I want that written somewhere in time, maybe on my headstone.

Death is perceived as a scary thing. It's dark and unknown; it's uncertainty, a void to fear. I don't fear death, I welcome it. I invite the peace and excitement of moving into something unseen. I know one day this protective suit I wear is going to need its final rest and there will be other quests for my soul to go on!

I believe that for every new life born in to this experience, we must say good-bye to one in death. It is the cycle of life that helps maintain the balance between nature and human population. And for those of us left behind when someone dies, we often get lost in our own grief and sometimes, we figuratively die and never recover joy in life.

The world is massive, I just know there is something more out there and that this cannot possibly be the only experience of life! Maybe next time I will be a unicorn or an alien. Oh wait, I have been, right here in this life. Never quite fitting in but still finding places to call home at the end of the day, when all is said and done.

Every life should be celebrated with laughter, memories and songs but it is necessary to mourn the losses. The grief should be felt completely, embraced and then let go. Love and loss are synonymous with Life and death.

The Universe in balance because we all need angels to watch over us. They are setting us free by letting us go, not the other way around. When we let something die its natural death, its grip lets go so that we move on to something new and beautiful, but only if you let their light shine on, so that we can grow and thrive in the next phase of life.

Or maybe their death isn't a loss but a relief. No sorrow to be found but a chance to let your own light shine as you step out of their shadows. A lesson or blessing can always be found, don't let their memory dull your shine or paralyze your life. It's okay to not be sad and not feel guilty.

But, I also believe that when we die, it is not the end, but only the beginning, a new start. A chance to do it all again. To right the wrongs and make better choices. We will come back around and meet again in another time and place, while given a current lifetime of memories to comfort us [until next time].

Until I lay this mortal body to rest, I must address a different kind of death. The kind that happens while living it. The kind of death that changes a person's soul as it is happening. The kind that brings us to a different side of ourselves. A new and improved version of being.

We find ourselves at a crossroads on life's tracks and have to make choices that change our direction in life. Do we follow the latest trend, obey traditions of the past, or do we take the reins and follow our own compass home? Who is the conductor of this crazy train? (- RIP Ozzy, 2025)

I started this journey on a solitary track and have made many Train station stops along the way. I have met a lot of people as they have gotten on and off. Some stayed for the scenic ride and others took the express. There have been bad spots when I wished I could back track to another time. I took a few detours and been forced into the occasional pause for repairs after a breakdown.

Why is this journey so hard, I'm just along for the ride, not here to stay but not here to die. I just want to watch the trains go by. Sometimes, I want to jump off the ride. I question the universe and ask why I have to be strong enough to survive.

And there have been times when I least expected, my suck train jumps the track and crashes and I die an unforeseen shadow death. A death of my spirit and love for my life when in tunnels of darkness and I wanted to give up.

Today, we lay to rest versions of me that no longer exists. May my alter egos die so that my soul can move forward and be only its best. I say good-bye to the parts of me that left me in pieces and had me falling apart.

Let me be a memory without pain. Replay our song and let love in, I promise one day you will smile again. The storms will calm and life will go on. A new love will be born and I become another tune of love on the soundtrack of life.

I guess what I'm saying is that the me you once knew no longer lives here but there is this new version of me asking to be accepted as I now am and to stop trying to resuscitate old me back from the dead. [DNR baby]

I love and I die it's what I was born to do. I lay old me to rest! RIP old versions of me and let this new me RISE from the dead, for I Am the Nightmare in Red! I AM a phoenix rising from the ash of my soul train crash. My soul burns and I'm ready to set the world on fire. I'm the only one with a ticket on this Life's ride and I'm getting ready to pull into my destination as guided by destiny. I am finally ready to fulfill my life's soul contract.

It was written in the stars that our time would end so that new life could begin. I will always be the me that loves you in every memory. I will always watch over you as an angel when you need me the most. And when you miss me, let me be a light that shines your pain away and let me be, your favorite song.

So when it comes time for you to sit in the 'Reception Room Chair', please don't mourn me. My time with you was meant to only be temporary and I'm sorry for the pain.

I'm sorry for the times I cut and made you bleed, let my love be the apology.

Until next time,

Love, Death and Rebirth,

inRhymes.com

"Reception Room Chair" can be found in the "Collective Connections" Collections