Star-Crossed

Alabama shuffle #5. This is where my countdown will begin.

This one is a shout out to Heaven or wherever it is your beautiful soul may have landed as to what your idea of Heaven may have been.

This is one I should have left in the silence, but his song carries on even though he's been gone a lifetime. I still question the universe, why you had to die. Why you and I didn't get another try. Why couldn't I see then that you were the marrying kind. Or was that the problem, the reason you and I couldn't quite get it right.

You saw something in me that I couldn't see. You loved me no matter what I did. You were smart and stable and could have offered me a life. You were an angel placed on my path to show me what unconditional love looked like. Everything should have felt so right but the stars just never aligned.

You were as close to perfect as perfect could be. You were the one I was to come home to when we were alone and old and gray, but the universe designed it in a different way.

Who I was then isn't who I am today and I'm not so sure that is how our story would have ended anyway.

I have been holding on to all the things we did and didn't say. I have been holding you close to my vest as a regret I'll never get to fix. You and I were complicated and had a love that just wasn't meant to be. In this story, you are the blessing, and I was a lesson.

I wish I had a chance to say goodbye and to say I am sorry. I would like to believe you are one of my angels that watches over me and keeps me safe. One of my angels guiding me to stay the path of destiny that set me free of you. On the anniversary of this day in time you left me behind, I send my love and let you go for your love isn't mine to hold.

We were two pieces in a puzzle that just didn't fit but I loved you just the same. It is in your memory that I see the lesson I was meant to learn in our time together. I pray to my Archangel Michael that one day you and I will reunite in death.

Forever a scar on my heart, I will never forget my star-crossed lover. May our love forever roll on. If you receive this message in Heaven, please know that I'm not that way anymore. Thank you for being a part of my journey in this life and I hope again in the next.

MWM. Thank you for laughter, the joy, the adventures, the time, the energy and love. Thank you for the tears, truth and friendship. Thank you for the soundtrack.

I hope one day to be as pure of heart as you.

Love, Light and star-crossed lovers.

"Star-Crossed" can be found in the "Pieces of my Heart" Collection