Logging Off

Is better than shutting down.

I did something I have never done before. I shut off my phone for 2.5 days. I have never shut my phone off, not since it became a social requirement to have one. I have kids and family, didn't I worry? No. Not for one selfish minute.

I ventured off into the woods and looked for answers. Who am I and what do I want from life? I decided it was time to log off and find the answers you can't find on the internet. No Wi-Fi necessary. Just me and nature.

Our bodies are just like our phones if you think about it. But unlike our phones that get auto controlled upgrades and scanned regularly for viruses by the outside powers that be, we can control what we take in and what we put out.

We put an awful lot of trust in something that poisons us equally. All things can be good or bad, people have forgotten about moderation. Good things are instant, great things are created with time and patience.

However, I am not here to discuss the social pitfalls of social media, especially since it is a wonderful way for people to share messages of hope and comfort. The irony is not lost on this writer, but AI couldn't exist without humans.

My body was starting to malfunction with some seasonal illness. The fatigue, the depression, the stress. I mean I tried to reboot with medicines; I would charge and recharge periodically but I never really hard reset. I needed to unplug. Unclutter my mind and heart. A reset of mindset if you will.

I needed my focus reigned in so I could hear the messages from the universe. I needed to be able to hear the answers to the doubts and fears my body holds onto. I am at a time in my life when I need more strength than ever before. I think I have a higher calling to answer but, what if all the what ifs?

Can I tell you!?!?! It was the best thing ever!! Pulled out of town, powered down my phone halfway to my destination and then for once in my life, I shut off the radio. There was no clock to be found, no time to be kept.

No sounds to hear except the wind in the trees, the rushing of water over the rocks, the songs of the birds. I let nature do the talking and I sat and listened. The woman I found in those 2.5 days came out with a renewed confidence and a stronger spirit.

I stripped myself bare before the universe and asked the questions that have been plaguing me. I buried my fears and danced naked in the fire with my demons. I watched the eagle soar above me in majestic flight and found the answers in the turkey feather left by an angel. I heard the answers in the wind and felt the sun's life on my skin. I was cleansed by the tears that fell from the sky that cried with me. Guilt, shame and anger released with every trigger pulled and every bullet released. I asked for forgiveness, and I gave forgiveness.

I will no longer ask for permission to be me. I will no longer look outside myself for what is best for me. I know what my purpose is, and I know what I want. I will no longer apologize for being different. I will not dull my shine and if you get burned by my light, at least you felt the heat, if only for a moment. Life is meant to be felt; life is meant to be lived!!

I know who I am meant to be because I believe in destiny. I no longer need to chase my dreams for they are coming to me. In fact, most of them have been quietly happening right in front of me. I had become numb to the instant results around me. I had become numb to the world around me. I have become numb to the virtual side of life.

See, I've been transitioning up until now. I left here a sparrow, and I came back a phoenix! I say to my angels, and to all of you to bear witness, in the spirit of Easter, I too, have risen again. Risen to bring greatness to this blessing of a life I have been given. Maybe this is the lesson Jesus, and the others were trying to teach us.

I have learned I can love my life the way I want to or love a virtual world that leaves me cold. I want the heat on my face in the day and the shade of the night to cool down my soul. I choose to do it authentically, because I love by the sun and am passionately ruled by the moon. I am.

We all die and rise again, every day! The choice has become will we do it authentically or will we stay stuck in a virtual reality?

I have learned that nature is good for any ailment. I went to the woods sick in my body, mind and soul and I came out feeling better than I have in years. I'm sorry it took me so long to log off and go. I hope you try it sometime. You might find you have answers you didn't know were already inside you.

Love, Light and Virtual reality,

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The poem "Virtual Lover" can be found in the Life's Vinyl Collection