Haunting Old Ghosts

I haven't felt compelled to come back out here to write since I finished journaling my story. I am hoping life took me on that journey so I could share it one day as encouragement to other humans to keep going when life gets hard, and to be a light at the end of the tunnel for when giving up seems to be the only answer.

So, what have I been doing with myself? I have been opening my mind to new opportunities, embracing friendships, fixing strained relationships (worth saving), and letting go of the people, places, and things that no longer deserve me. I have been embracing peace with life.

I'm still learning to let go of negative energy that holds me back and I think this is where the most important lesson of all comes in. How do we keep going once we step out of the old version of ourselves and into the new, and actually live it with vigor and trust?

Will the past still come back to haunt me? Will it continue to lurk in the dark, or will it somehow serve a greater good after I'm gone? Will it all have served some purpose I don't know of? Will it be in life or after death?

I guess that is not for me to know until someone out there discovers my secrets and then what will happen, will happen? Ironically, isn't that how all poets become true poets, popularity in death and with the demise of their life and character?

But now that part of the story is over; and I am preparing to step into a new chapter of life, I considered taking the blog down and forgetting I even put it all out here for the internet to keep.

But, I went ghost hunting recently and the evil, darkness, and sadness that surrounded me is not anything I want to leave behind. I am relieved to know that is not the kind of story I am meant to live and it makes me want to leave the world in a better place than it currently is.

What I gained from this experience was gratitude for my life and my experiences. I accept the consequences of my actions and decisions, and am thankful for my life as I have been given it. I look forward to where I am going, even if I don't quite know where that final destination is, yet.

I do know that wherever I land, it’s going to be great! And when it comes to the end of the line, I pray my spirit doesn't get stuck here in time. It felt as though the souls that can't let go, are the very souls that get stuck and condemned for the afterlife.

But, it seems, they too are still here to tell their stories, until it is their time to rest. The times were harder back then but since the beginning of time, humanity has been given choices in life, and no two people get to make the same choice, just similar in experience until someone gets it right.

I pray that my metamorphous from a flawed caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly will speak the truth of my character, but either way, please let it spread more light than dark.

That it was my time in the chrysalis that was meant as a cleansing from haunting old ghosts, so they could stop hunting me.

Hmm, is this why history continues to repeat itself?

Maybe there is something to be learned from haunting old ghosts while ghost hunting.

I bet our friend, Nightmare in Red haunts like an old ghost. She isn’t one you can easily forget.

Until next time,

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